Sunday, July 5, 2009

January?

Well, I got my period last week so I gave the clinic a call to make sure that everything was a go to have an IUI done. Turns out no news is NOT good news when the clinic loses your ultrasound results. Yes, I still have the cyst and now I have to go see the doctor... well that doesn't sound promising. The next available appointment is in August... no, there is nothing available at all during July, you know, since I have the entire month off.

Of course, following this news I had to google "ovarian cyst" and see what the internet has to say about it. Hmm... turns out that lower back pain I've been having that I attributed to my weight is actually a symptom... and the odd pain in my ribcage... yes, that's a symptom too.

Based on my last experience with having abnormal results, I'm estimating perhaps we'll be able to go ahead with an IUI in January assuming I'll need surgery again this time.

In other news, we're on day 3 of potty training so hopefully we'll start seeing some results soon. I'm hoping he'll pick it up rather easily and we can spend the remainder of the month doing more fun things like going to the lake, the amusement park, long walks, etc.

Friday, June 12, 2009

Enough already...

I get that your first visit to the zoo was exhausting but I'd like to go get groceries, find some new books for you and look for some Sesame Street "guys" since you love them so much... before everyone else is off work for the week.

Wednesday, June 3, 2009

8X8 Meme

8 Things I Am Looking Forward To:
1. A month of vacation this summer
2. Hopefully, having a second baby
3. Going to bed to finish my book
4. Travelling again at some point
5. getting started on my next _uilt
6. finishing my current _uilt
7. having a computer with a "cue" that works so I don't have to use a _ instead.
8. getting the results of my ultrasound today... maybe with a go-ahead to start trying for #2

8 Things I Did Yesterday:
1. got up
2. showered
3. made lunch (this is an accomplishment, I've been eating out way to much lately)
4. went to work
5. actually ate the lunch I took to work
6. slept on the bus on the way home
7. picked up the boy from the babysitter
8. went to bed

.... yes, it was an exciting day.

8 Things I Wish I Could Do:

1. play an instrument (without having to practice, I play nothing)
2. lose a bunch of weight
3. bungee jump
4. move to a smaller town
5. decide what I want to be when I grow up
6. hire a maid service
7. travel around the world
8. go to Disneyland tomorrow

8 Shows I Watch
1. Grey's Anatomy
2. The Biggest Loser
3. The Amazing Race
4. Bones
5. Lost
6. House
7. ER (so it ended last month but I had watched it since it started)
8. ... whatever

8 Favorite Fruit:
1. cherries
2. grapes
3. saskatoons
4. watermelon
5. blueberries
6. pineapple
7. raspberries
8. strawberries

8 Places I'd Like to Travel:

1. across Canada
2. Norway
3. Denmark
4. Sweden
5. Africa
6. Australia
7. Scotland
8. the Netherlands

8 Places I've Lived: (I don't have 8 cities so I'll settle for 8 houses)
1. the "old" house
2. the "new" house
3. in the city
4. in a smaller city
5. in my own apartment
6. with my parents
7. in my condo
8. in my house

I was tagged by Shannon and Billy

Saturday, May 30, 2009

Everyday

It's something new. I swear the boy is learning new things and saying new things every day that I didn't know he knew. We pick up the new big boy bed today and assembled it. He has been sleeping in the crib which I converted to a daybed about 2 months ago so I'm not too worried about him falling out. Plus he napped in there this afternoon and so far so good. He looks so tiny in a twin bed... it makes me sad to think he's big enough for a real bed already.

My babysitter officially told me last week that she won't be babysitting again next year. I've booked my vacation for the month of July and will spend that time doing something fun and exciting... potty training. I will get to spend the whole month home with my little bear though so it's all good.

Not much else new here. Just plugging away with the usual and working on getting some bigger projects done. Painting, fence staining and landscaping, oh my!

Today's post brought to you by the words "nice" and "apple" .
(Did anyone get the Sesame Street reference there? Brought to you by the letter U and the number 3? Yeah, I'm a dork. However, both are new words this week.)

Saturday, May 16, 2009

Just waiting.

The clinic called me a couple of weeks ago. They want to monitor the cyst to make sure it's gone before they will let me start trying for baby 2. It's times like these I wish I had a hubby... if I was married I wouldn't even know that I had a cyst let alone have to wait to try for a baby.

I know it's not that long... my repeat ultrasound is booked for June 3. However, that is long enough that I will miss trying in not only May but also in June. I expect my period a couple of days after the appointment... before the clinic will receive the test results so I will have to wait until near the end of July for the next IUI.

I am trying to think ahead and get some things done around the house in the meantime. I picked up some shrubs to replace ones in front of the house that are growing too large for my taste (they're starting to cover the windows) so I've gotten a couple of lower growing ones. I also picked up stain to re-do the fence. I think it could wait until next year, however, I'm hoping to be either hugely pregnant or to have a newborn by then so I'm doing it this year. Now to keep the boy out of the way while I do it is the challenge.

Friday, April 24, 2009

Waiting. And a little wondering.

I went to the ultrasound last week. Contrary to what typically happens, the ultrasound tech told me that it looks like I have a cyst on one of my ovaries. I didn't get the impression that it was a big deal at this point but rather something that they will monitor in a couple of months to make sure it has gone away.

Regardless, it is times like that I'm very happy I decided to start looking into having children when I did.

I will admit to having moments of doubt about whether I've made the right decision about having another child. It's mostly a financial issue. I know I can do it but there is the niggling thought in the back of my mind about what I would do if I were to ever lose my job. Honestly, I can't see finding another job that pays the same. I also occasionally worry about the amount of individual attention the kids will get. Right now the boy gets my undivided attention.

I know I can do it. Really, I do. I'm not the type of person who will go ahead without being absolutely sure about that.

On another front, I have yet to hear from the woman who was trying to track down additional vials. She did tell me that she's left messages with several people and would contact me when she has news. It's now been 2 weeks so I'm going with the assumption that they will not be able to get any more. I've tentatively chosen a new donor... but I'm still hoping I'll be successful on the first try and it will be a non-issue (since I do still have the one vial left).

By my (or rather, www.mymonthlycycles.com) calculations I should be ovulating near the end of May and will go ahead with the IUI then.

Sunday, April 12, 2009

Rolling along... fast

The plans for baby #2 are progressing far faster than I ever imagined they would. I visited my doctor for the physical and referral to the clinic and was called for my first appointment a mere 6 days later (it took 6 months last time). The appointment was made for 3 weeks after that. I went to that appointment and the doctor gave me the option of repeating all the tests or just going ahead and trying. I assume there wouldn't have been an option if he felt there was a need to have them repeated. I opted not to re-do them all.

He does want me to have the ultrasound done again. I was told to expect a 6 week wait to get in to have that done. You guessed it.... my appointment was made for 9 days later. At this point I'm waiting to go in for that and celebrating the arrival of my period. Odd concept. However, it means that it will be gone before I have the lovely internal ultrasound on Wednesday.

The clinic said it will take them a week to get the results and then it was just a matter of getting them read before I could have my first IUI done. Because of the timing of the ultrasound so soon after my period they will have 2 weeks to get the ultrasound read before my next period. I expect I will be trying NEXT MONTH!

On another positive note the doctor said they might be able to find me more samples to purchase. My donor has retired and has no more Canadian-compliant vials for sale. I do have one left in storage from when I conceived my son so maybe I'll get lucky and be successful on the first try this time.

Monday, March 16, 2009

Let's get physical, physical...

I had a physical last week. My doctor decided to give up her family practice so I felt lucky to get in for my physical on her last day of work. I really didn't want my first meeting with a new doctor to be for that.

I asked for a referral to the fertility clinic.

They called me today SIX DAYS after I asked for the referral. I was expecting six months (what it took last time), even six weeks (what another SMC who uses the same clinic as I do waited the second time around), but six DAYS? I was not prepared for that. My first appointment is in three weeks when the doctor will order all the tests (blood work, ultrasound, HSG).

I'm in shock.

I could be a mommy again in less than a year.

Holy cow!

Saturday, March 7, 2009

Did you just EAT that?

Lately that seems to be how my life seems to go. The boy puts EVERYTHING in his mouth. He's learned how to open shampoo bottles, tubes of lotion, etc. with his teeth. So he does. All the time. He opens the lotion and his immediate response is "mmmm".... as he starts to EAT it. How can that be good?

He's in to everything. The drawer in the kitchen that has the tin foil, plastic wrap, etc... which I'm scared he's going to cut himself on the boxes of. Those darned tear strips are sharp.

The toilet brush and plunger are also favorites... EWWW.

So last night I started "cleaning" the house, or finding new homes for all these things. I even moved all the baking pans I don't use very often to shelving units in the basement (I can't tell you the last time I made an Angel Food Cake but I need to keep the pan in the kitchen apparently). So no more avalanches when bear starts playing in the cupboards.

This should stop a lot of the meltdowns he's been having lately when I take away these items...

And because I'm sure he'll appreciate it... here's a recent picture...

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Nice plumbers bum dear.


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Wednesday, February 25, 2009

Plans

Having a plan is a good thing... until circumstances force you to alter them.

I was considering taking the boy on vacation. While I really wanted to go I didn't want to spend the money or use up my vacation days since I currently don't have a babysitter for the summer. Regardless, I'd applied for a passport for him and was going to make my decision when that arrived.

Then my sister called me to share the gossip yesterday. It seems my doctor has decided to give up her family practice and exclusively work at the maternity clinic.

How does this affect me?

I had scheduled an appointment for a physical in mid-May. At that point I was going to ask for a referral to the fertility clinic again. Well, now she won't be working then. I called her office and did manage to re-schedule a time... in 2 WEEKS. I will go ahead and get the referral then, so I guess I will be trying to conceive baby #2 a couple of months sooner than I had originally planned.

I had been planning on giving myself a little more time to lose more weight before I started trying again. I am down 25 lbs since last summer but I was hoping it would be more like 50 before I got pregnant again. That's not to say I'm going to stop trying or that I have no time left. I'm now estimating that I have a minimum of 14 weeks before I'll get an appointment and complete all the testing they do before I have my first IUI.

I'm a little nervous about my schedule changing but also excited to think I could potentially have a baby next spring.

Sunday, February 8, 2009

Grr!

Well with a title like that I'm sure you know where this is heading...

Took the boy to the park today and a couple shows up with their kids. Well, the little girl who is about 6 is kind of annoying but hey, that's just a kid thing. A few minutes later I was trying to get the boy to walk around a bit, it is a nice day after all and I'd rather he was walking around a little than sitting in the wet in spots path and trying to put rocks in his mouth. About a minute later the little girl comes up behind him and starts pushing him so he'll walk were she wants him to... and makes him fall. Not joking his head almost hit the cement. So she starts to pick him up. Let me just say I don't trust a 6 year old to lift my 30 lb child so I asked her not to pick him up.

I put him on his feet and she starts doing it AGAIN. Same result of course except this time he didn't almost smack his head but he is lying on his back. AGAIN the kid starts to pick him up. So I told her DON'T pick him up and DON'T push him.

Well, give it a minute or two and the parents freak out on me. Start telling me I don't know how to talk to children because I made their daughter cry and "people like you shouldn't be parents". Now don't get me wrong, I don't go out of my way to make kids cry but clearly the parents didn't care what their child was up to... they were sitting on a bench halfway across the park with the baby even though there were picnic tables next to where she was playing. So really, how could they know what she was doing. I told them that I'd already asked her to stop and she didn't (which apparently I was wrong about... "she wasn't pushing him"... I'm not sure what else you call it when you put both hands on the back of someone smaller than you and start walking so that they're forced to... and faster than he's capable of I might add). Well, the guy is flipping that my child is going to grow up to be a horrible person like me and later that "you don't use the word fuck in front of your child".

OMG! I was so mad. For one thing I told him to mind his own fricking business (because really I don't swear in front of my child and very little at any other time). Did they think it would make anyone happy to have some stranger tell them they shouldn't be a mom on the basis of telling a child "don't"? (for the record, I neither touched their child nor raised my voice). And for another they weren't supervising THEIR child. Mine was no more then 4-5 feet away from me at any point.

Grrr!

Monday, February 2, 2009

Long time... no blog.

It's certainly been a while. Life is just chugging by still.

New developments:

I've called my doctors office and made an appointment for a physical in mid-May. At that point I may ask for a referral to the fertility clinic again.

The boy and I have been going to swimming lessons for the last month. He loves it... and will cry when he has to get out.

I'm torn on whether or not I'm going to have baby #2. I'm sure I want to 90% of the time but I do have moments where I think about how different our lives will be with another baby. I've been working on the finances and I think we'll be fine but won't have a lot extra. If I only have Warren then I will be able to do lots of things with him that I'd like to. Like take him to Disneyland, on a safari in Africa (maybe 10 years from now), etc. Is that not worth having a baby for? Life would be much easier (I'd save $800/month on childcare) but I also know I will get raises and make more money and family is much more important to me than money.

Well I have 3 months to decide...

Tuesday, January 6, 2009

Finally

Well after what... 2 years of procrastinating... I finally did it. I drafted up a will tonight. I just need to find some paper and handwrite it to make it legal (yes, I'm sure that makes it legal here). I may get a couple of my co-workers to "witness" it just for added security.

I know the reason I've been putting it off. I just couldn't decide who to give guardianship of the boy to. I'm still not particularily happy with the choice I made but I feel like I made the BETTER choice. Why? Why can't I have someone I WANT to have him rather than feeling like I'm choosing the lesser of the evils? I'm so torn.

Sunday, December 28, 2008

A start?

Well. I tried a mitten. I'm not totally happy with it but I think part of that is the pattern. It seems to be a little pointy at the top... although the picture with the pattern doesn't seem as pointy as mine. So here's my attempt:


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You know you want purple mittens.

Actually I'm trying to use up my "leftovers" before I start on new balls of yarn. This is leftover from making a afghan for my niece who LOVES purple. I think it's okay for a first attempt. I will get my mom to help me out with a few issues I had... she says knitting mittens was punishment for saying "I'm bored" as a child. Now comes the challenging part... trying to make a second the same as the first.

Thursday, December 25, 2008

Overwhelmed

Christmas morning was much more fun in my house this year. The boy actually attempted to open a present with some encouragement from mommy. As expected, he was happy to play with the first thing he got and didn't care to open any more. He was pretty overwhelmed by the number of new toys he got (2 from mom, 1 each from santa, grandma, auntie and the babysitter) and was relatively cranky this morning. Once I took him away from his toys and put him in the highchair (so he was forced to stop playing long enough to eat), his mood improved greatly.

We also made the transition to a forward-facing car seat this afternoon. It has been VERY cold here and is expected to get cold again in the next couple days (in the -30C range) so I took advantage of the "balmy" -12C weather today to turn the seat. I weighed him yesterday and he is only about a pound and a half from the maximum weight for rearfacing so allowing for a margin of error on the scale it was definately time.

Not much else is going on here. I did decide to take Mrs. Spit's suggestion of knitting to fill the evenings. While I'm not very good at it I can knit a straight line, but not so good with the complex patterns. This got me to thinking... I always want to do more for the less fortunate. I did buy a gift for this charity this year in addition to the "adopt a teen" we did through work. How do these two things relate? Well, I've decided that I'm going to knit hats and scarves to donate to the shelter. It will fill my time, therefore benefitting me, while also helping out others. Sounds like a win-win situation to me.

Hope everyone had a great day.